I lost 3 pounds this week. I mean, I LOST 3 POUNDS THIS WEEK! That’s how excited I was. Woo hoo. However, I don’t know what the hell was different. I didn’t track this week. I didn’t do anything extra in the way of exercise. I didn’t drink any less or more fluids than I have in the previous eleventy billion weeks of my life. The only thing I can think of is that my heart feels like it is pounding out of my chest a lot of the time. Maybe that is burning more calories. I’m not sure. I’ve had my blood pressure and pulse checked (I’m on meds for both) and they are fine. I saw my rheumatologist and she says everything looks good, including my blood work. She says that I need to get my eyes checked and a dexa scan for a baseline but, other than that, I’m good until next year. Anyway, I lost 3 pounds last week! Woot woot! Then, when I got home, I was carrying a basket of clothes down to the laundry room and the yoga pants that I was wearing, literally fell down! I can’t wear them anymore. They are officially too big.
Sam’s life continues to be in turmoil. I don’t know what else to say about that. If you are praying, please pray for him. If not, please keep him in your thoughts. Throw us in there with him if you don’t mind. We are making it one day at a time, but it can be difficult sometimes. I’ll try to remember the quote below when it gets really tough.
“It’s dark because you are trying too hard. Lightly child, lightly. Learn to do everything lightly. Yes, feel lightly even though you’re feeling deeply. Just lightly let things happen and lightly cope with them. I was so preposterously serious in those days…Lightly, lightly—it’s the best advice ever given me. So throw away your baggage and go forward. There are quicksands all about you, sucking at your feet, trying to suck you down into fear and self-pity and despair. That’s why you must walk so lightly. Lightly, my darling.”
— Aldous Huxley (via sol-psych)