I had a very exhausting, shitty, stressful, emotional week this past week. I’ve written about Sam before. He continues to have difficulty and this last week, or so, was more of that. I believe, at this time, he is working at making better choices and dealing with some of his issues. He continues to be a good kid, he’s just a good kid who has a lot of problems that he needs help with. I hope he will accept the help that is offered him by those who love him. I think he will right now. I can only take it one day at a time. I know that this may come off as being about drug use, but that is not what this past week was about. It’s deeper than that. We don’t know everything, but I hope he is able to find his truth and learn to manage it appropriately. I love him so much and I want him to be safe and happy.*
I did really well on the weight loss front this week. I lost 1# this past week. That’s a total of 10.6# from my highest weight and 4.4 from when I really re-focused myself which was 4 weeks ago. That’s about an average of 1# per week, which is what Weight Watchers recommended (1-2 pounds per week), so I’m good with that. As far as measurements, since I’m doing those monthly, too, I have those as well and they’re pretty good. However, being the person I am, my first instinct was to discount them. My waist= -1.5, my hips= -0.5, my bicep= -1.5, my thigh measurement went up, which makes me think I measured it wrong the first time and this is the correct measurement and my bust measurement stayed the same.
My husband and I are connecting more intensely (not talking about sex here, people, although there’s that, too ) because of the emotional stress. We need each other because we are mostly the only safe place we have right now and we both understand exactly what the other one is going through because we are going through exactly the same thing. No one else can understand it the way we do because we are Sam’s parents and, obviously, he doesn’t have other parents. It’s unique to us. We have a closeness right now that I cannot explain. I love him so much and I don’t know what I would do without him. (Yes, I tell him this just about every single day.)