I had this awful dream the other day (yes, day, I was taking a nap). It was one of those ones that sticks with you and you can’t stop thinking about it. It seemed so real and just left a yucky feeling inside my chest and a sick feeling in my stomach.
In my dream, Ashley drove off a bridge into the Mississippi River. I think it was an accident. There were hours and hours of sitting on the bank of the river with many police, divers and other emergency workers waiting to see if they could find her. I was devastated and terrified. I was sobbing. I’m sure I was crying in my sleep. They did find her alive, cold and wet, but alive. I woke up before I saw her with my own eyes, but they had told me she was okay.
Why do we dream such horrible awful things? I’ve had dreams that have come true before. It always scares me when I have a terrifying dream that it’s one of those that will have a thread of truth in it. This dream especially bothered me because it had that kind of feeling to it.
I think it is just your mind’s way of saying that no matter how much Ashley frustrates you, you still love her and don’t want anything bad to happen to her. If things have been going well with your relationship, it could be a kind of hope that something bad doesn’t happen now that things are going so well.
I hate those kind of dreams too.
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I don’t think God lets us dream that stuff because it will come true…but rather that he lets us feel a burden so that we may cover those we love with prayer.
When you lay down tonight read this verse…OUT LOUD…and sleep peacefully my friend. Psalm 4:8 (K)
and girl…how’s the weight loss coming?
You’re worried about her, but you know all you can do is be there when she needs you. xo
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Dream translation…Dreaming of a death or near death of your child is a manifestation of a “death” of a phase in their life. i.e. potty training is a step out of “babyhood” as is walking. Going to school is also a step away from mommys wing. It’s possible that Ashley is taking steps towards adulthood and independence? …is she taking the SATs? Applying to colleges?
Shower her with love.Remind her to be careful in the weather. She will be fine. (L)
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Dreams like that are hard. Maybe it means that even though you have no control over Ashley’s behavior, you still love her no matter what, will be there for her, and that she is very special to you. You are her Mom, and a good one at that.
PeggyG
I have no idea why we dream what we do, or what it means…but I know when I dream a dream like that and I wake up crying, or scared I hate it.
Hugs…
Lynda–Things are never “going well”, just sometimes a little better than others. I think the part about it telling me that no matter how much she frustrates me, I still love her is pretty accurate and probably part of it.
I still feel that feeling in my stomach when I think about it and it’s been almost a week since I had that dream.
Speck–I did. Several times.
The weight loss is going well. 10# so far! Over the holidays, even!
Finn–I think you are right.
MM–No, that’s not it. I wish she were applying to college or taking the SATs. My God, I would have a party if she did that. LOL More like she stays out all night and doesn’t tell anyone where she is or when she is coming home (never mind that she has a child that she’s supposed to be responsible for). Hey! Maybe that’s it.
PeggyG–I think that’s pretty accurate.
FG–It does suck. Thanks for the hugs!