For most of my life I have been a pretty straightforward person. I have always worn my heart on my sleeve. I shared my opinions freely. I have never had a censor in my brain that prevented me from telling anyone and everyone my life story, my problems, my hopes, my fears and really anything that they did or didn’t want to know. If you have read my blog long enough, you may think that is still how I am. And for the most part, you would be right.
I have done some personal growth in the last year, year and a half or so. A great deal of it, I have kept inside me. Sharing it only with the absolute closest of friends and my husband. Sometimes just my husband. For the most part, I just swirled it around and around in my own brain trying to figure it all out myself. There came a time when I couldn’t handle it all by myself. I couldn’t give it to my husband or my friends to figure it out for me either. That was one of the hardest times of my life.
Even though it was a hard time, it made me feel good to know that I could keep some things just to myself. They were my thoughts and no one else knew about them. No one had anything to do with them. They couldn’t judge them or tell me what to do about them. They were mine and mine alone. They still are.
They are not a secret that I am keeping from you, or you, or even you. They are just very tiny pieces of me that I hold in my heart and when I want to remember what I have been through, what I have learned and how I have grown from them, I take them out and I look at them again. That’s when I remember that I am strong and I can overcome obstacles that may sometimes seem insurmountable to me. When I am done, I put them away for the next time I need to remind myself that I am a survivor.
You better not keep any secrets from me…
I understand how you feel, I look upon it as overcoming obstacles on the journey of life.
Yes girl, exactly.
And hurray for you.
I think all of us have those “just for me” secrets-all sizes and shapes. If they make you stronger -great!
Holy crap….now it’s MY turn to ask if you are my long lost blog cousin from another state! I could have written this post and know exactly how you feel.
Here’s something I love to say – “everything that is in my blog is true but not everything that is true is in my blog.”
You should always keep your secrets the way you want them :).
I save my secrets for myself because I don’t want anyone turning me in to the authorities.
You keep yours Shelli…..
The way it should be
Fab–NEVER.
Hayley–Exactly. The remembering that you are strong enough when you face them is the difficult part.
Speck–Thank you.
MM–I think you are right.
Hilly–See, I knew that I liked you! We get each other, I think. I love that saying. I may use it sometimes, if that’s okay.
Slick–Good plan! For both of us.
Barbara–thanks.