I will tell you right now that one has nothing to do with the other. In case you were thinking I was psychotically checking my site stats and allowing my mood to be affected by them. It is sometimes isn’t.
My birthday is less than two weeks away. Like I said in a meme a couple days ago, I am happy with the age I am, however, I find myself questioning what I am going to do with the rest of my life. Is there something about the age that I am approaching that is causing me to be so introspective? My cyber twin, Megan is experiencing some of the similar feelings and questions. Or do you think it is it because I am unemployed? Maybe because I feel like I am at a crossroads? I am not sure. I feel like I am not doing what I should be. Well, technically, I am not doing anything, but I think you know what I mean.
If I want to get all depressed about it, I tend to tell myself (there is Chatterbox rearing her ugly head, again) that I am not doing my share to support my family. I sometimes hear that “W” word inside my head. Worthless. I have people, my husband included, who tell me every day that this isn’t true and I am working on listening to them instead of that other annoying voice, but sometimes it is hard. Sunday was a very bad day. Really bad. That is when I decided to put up the imood indicator in my sidebar. I thought, “I just know that people are dying to know what my mood is all the time.” Since it can change at the drop of a hat, often many times between postings, I thought that it would be courteous for me to put the indicator up there for you so that you could check back several times throughout the day. I know you will. You have a desperate need to know. 
In other news…
We hit a milestone here at Sentiments yesterday. 15,000 hits! I don’t know who the visitor was, but it was someone in Corpus Christi, Texas. Or somewhere near there, anyway. I would have gotten some awesome graphics to show off this whole momentous occasion, but I am tired and my husband wants me to come to bed now. (hubba hubba) Too much information? Yah, right, like I’ve given you less information in the last two posts. You guys have enough on me to make yourselves rich for years. Wait. You can’t blackmail me because there isn’t anyone else to tell since everybody reads my blog.
I’m going through the exact same thing. I’m twenty-two in two days, and this is not where I expected to be at this age. Hell, I didn’t even really give it a lot of thought but I know that this isn’t right.
Worthless is definitely the word of choice.
I’ve got just under a month to go.
Getting old sucks.
Wow! You have 15,000 hits. Man, I’m
jealousimpressed. Well done. I hope to hit 10,000 by September, which would be one year since I started keeping track of my hits.Sis, trust me, big things are ahead in your future. Everyone goes through periods like this. Everyone! And then you get a break, or you make a breakthrough, and whoosh!
It’s gonna happen. You just have to keep your eyes and ears open. And don’t get too down on yourself.
Okay, now, Marie…if you are coming back and reading this…you are 22, girl! You have OODLES of time to find your path.
Did I just say “oodles”?
Worse yet, I capitalized it.
This could be a problem…
oh you’re moody too?!>!
wow! we might just REALLY be sistahs.
Don’t sweat it baby, the right thing will come along. Sometimes it’s the getting there that is the most painful.
What can I say that hasn’t already been said? I have one month ’til my birthday, and you know that I’m doing some serious navel gazing. But it’s good to that once in a while. You’re going through a process. You’ll come out the other side.
And you’re NOT worthless! You have so, so much to give.
And Marie, I’m coming to kick your ass… You’re life is not over at 22. You won’t even figure out what you want to be when you grow up for another 15 years or so. Enjoy the journey and don’t sweat the destination. You’re not worthless either.
Damn, I wish I was that popular…. congrats on the 15K milestone. (it was 15K right? You didn’t just keep hitting the refresh button to make your hit score higher, like I would do?).
Boy am I far behind on the hit counter… I take too many breaks I think. And of course what does one have to do with the other but I get to feeling like the blog’s just not worth the effort every now and then… and then I get re-energized and start it back up. I think it’s different things with different people and the thing is, it’s like that for everybody in one way or another. We don’t all show it the same way, we don’t even all feel it the same way, but I think we all go through the same blues now and then.
Oh, and if you want to know what I was doing in Corpus Christi, well that’s just a big secret! :P
Hey babe, just wanted you to know that you are much valued and adored whether you feel it or not. Welcome to floppy hormones and every day life.
It’ll pass.
BlogMad hit! BSE!
If I remember right, we have the same birthday, yes? If you read my latest entry, you’ll know I’m itching for something too though I’m not sure what. Must be something going around the blogsphere or something!