I have been thinking about my Dad a lot lately. It is probably because of Memorial Day and Father’s Day. I didn’t do a post about him on Father’s Day because I felt like if I did a post at all it would have to be about my Dad and my husband and the fact that I don’t have my Dad in my life anymore and that I miss him terribly would overshadow all that my husband is and does for me and the kids. Besides it was too raw. I went to the store to get cards for Jason and my father-in-law. I couldn’t do it. I stood in front of the cards and all I could see was “To Dad From Daughter” or “When I was a little girl, Dad”. I kept getting tears in my eyes. So I went to the regular cards and got Jason one of those and made him get one for his Dad. I still miss him and it has been more than 6 years.
My friend, Mr. Fabulous, does Dedication Friday (and yes, this week he is doing it) and so last week I tried it, too. This week I am doing it again.
Right after my Dad died, this song was on the radio a lot. Or maybe I had the CD and played it a lot. Whatever the case, it struck a chord with me because it seemed that I would see my Dad everywhere. I would see his truck everywhere. Sometimes my brother’s would drop in and they would call, “Shell?” from the front door, like my Dad used to do when he would stop after or during work sometimes. And the kicker there was, they sounded just like him, too. My heart would stop beating sometimes. This song still reminds me of my Dad. Sometimes if I am in the right mood, it will make me cry. Not as often anymore, just once in awhile. You know?
Still Holding Out For You by SheDaisy Never thought I’d be in this place
It’s someone else’s life I’m living
Wish I were living a lie
The hardest part is when the bough breaks
Falling down and then forgiving
You didn’t even kiss me goodbye
I’m choking on the words I didn’t get to say
I pray I get the chance one dayChorus:
I still run
I still swing open the door
I still think you’ll be there like before
Doesn’t everybody out there know to never come round
Some things a heart won’t listen to
I’m still holding out for youI can see ya smile in the dark
I can even feel you breathing
Then daylight chases the ghost
I see your coat and I fall apart
To those hints of you I’m clinging
Now’s when I need them most
I should get up
Dry my eyes and move ahead
At least that’s what he would have saidI still run
I still swing open the door
I still think you’ll be there like before
Doesn’t everybody out there know to never come round
Some things a heart won’t listen to
I’m still holding out for youFaithfully I trace your name where you sleep
It’s the only true comfort I feelI still run
I still swing open the door
I still think you’ll be there like beforeI still run
I still swing open the door
I still think you’ll be there like before
Doesn’t everybody out there know to never come round
Some things a heart won’t listen to
I’m still holding out for youHolding out for you
I think that’s a beautiful dedication, Shelli. Perfect.
Great Blog! Easy to read. Well written. Great colors!
really sweet Shelli. I don’t write about my daddy. can’t yet.
But this was great.
You’re my heart.
Hugs. Beautiful post.
A beautiful tribute. I’m sorry it’s still so hard for you. I wish I could make it easier for you. ((hugs))
I lost my Dad in 1999 and while the pain has lessened the missing never goes away does it …. I miss my Dad too and I can completely relate.
Thank you for a great blog, and a very touching post! Your words have brought tears to my eyes.
Hey, your Dad is still there. He’s not on this Earth anymore, but he’s still there. He’s watching over you, knowing the things you go through, and even knows of your feelings and how you’re doing from day to day. He says he loves you, and looks forward to the time when you and he can be together again. And every now and then, when you most need it, he gives you a hug and lets you know everything will be alright.
This dedication to your Dad is great. You and he will be together again. You will be together forever and for all eternity. But for those times when things get a little sad for you, here’s a suggestion. The next time you start missing him, try thinking of the good times you had and smile instead of frown. I’m not saying that will take away the tears, but it might help make the homesick feeling a little more bearable.
LIke I know anything about how this affects you. it’s just an idea. I haven’t yet lost anyone particularly close to me. The closest was my childhood best friend, but he and I hadn’t spoken to each other in nearly 20 years when he passed away from lymph cancer.
What a wonderful tribute. I have never heard that song before but I think the lyrics are wonderful.
Nice dedication. It’s been since 1988 I lost my Dad. I still haven’t got over it. Come to the conclusion you never “get over it”, you learn to live without them. Every time that song, “Did you ever know that your my hero” comes on the radio, I loose it.
I’m sure your father knew how special he was to you!
A beautiful tribute to your Dad Shelli…and I know exactly what you mean. Take care Sweety!
So that is what 6 years will be like for me. :? I don’t think I will ever stop missing my sister, so I will just expect it.
I am ready for it.
I think that song would make me cry every time. I can be like that though, especially if I sing something.
I don’t think it is because I sing so bad it brings tears to my eyes.
Dedication – what a nice idea Shelli. I hope father’s day gets easier for you.